Phat Grrrl Superhero

Recently, I went through a life-altering experience...one that brought me face-to-face with the world I've created for myself and the world that was given to me.

As a result of this experience, I've come to understand a lot more about myself and my purpose, why my part of this circle of existence is necessary.

I've concluded that I'm something of a superhero.

Superheroes have lots of common:

1. They are typically deeply flawed.

2. Their flaws and their experiences as a result of these flaws create a unique and powerful sense of justice that is impossible for the superhero to ignore.

3. While fun and attention-grabbing at first, this sense of justice can oft times become an albatross. The superhero feels an enormous amount of pressure and therefore always feeling inadequate internally, while externally appearing powerful and confident, even arrogant and condescending.

4. A unique sense of fashion that is the quintessential marriage of function and form. The only exception is the female superhero...heels are hardly functional, even as weaponry.

5. They represent, simultaneously, the tenacity and vulnerability of the human spirit.

6. They don't take any shit from anyone, even if they deserve it.

7. They kick much ass and cause much damage. Strangely, they are rarely arrested or forced to pay for what they've destroyed.

8. They are weird and cannot fit in. Even if they have another persona, they are still weird because they disappear at odd moments and have strange, inexplicable friends.

9. Physically, they are anomalies. Depending on the superhero, what may be perceived as freakish physical qualities are utilized as their biggest strengths.

10. They never give up, back down or do what they're told.

Now, no one's written a comic about me and I rarely run around in tights and onesies, but I've decided that those things are unnecessary.

I have silver spanky pants and I write my own books, mostly about myself...I like telling stories that haven't been told. And I completely possess and love how self-centered and self-absorbed I am...in a world mainly absorbed in superficial bullshit, focusing on myself seems a healthy choice.

Being a phat grrrl superhero does have its drawbacks...like chafing. And only being able to fly underwater. Also, I don't run. I leap, sometimes, but running isn't gonna happen.

What matters to me most about being a Phat Grrrl Superhero is knowing and believing it.

I can run down a whole list of what I'm not supposed to be or do or think. But who cares?

Being a superhero is the only label I've ever applied to myself that feels right.

While I may not be able to leap tall buildings, swing from webs or turn green when I get mad (I usually turn pink), I have saved at least one life...the one that wasn't supposed to exist, the one that has caused much ire and is considered dangerous and sometimes, worthless...

mine.

I am a Phat Grrrl Superhero.

What kind of superhero are you?